when i think back on all the things ive done it makes me sad. It makes me wish i hadnt hurt the people i have. The changes ive made are effecting the people in my life direrently. I wonder sometimes if there is a way to please every body but i know the only one i have to please is myself. But im not pleased with the the maybe i should haves in my life. Its that hind sight that keep sober people drunk inside. It says to thy own self be true, but what if ones own self is not acceptable to him or others. this is the self i lost while drinking, i had so many masks i wore for diff people i lost the original. It may sound negative as hell but what needs to be done is a real fuck em all and roll with myself as i am, to certain ones i have to be patiant and understanding. some its love me or leave me . people say they find serenity in sobriety i cant find it beceause maybe i dont deserve it or am not looking overanalyzation will be the death of me like i said just rambling punch me in the shout box love JAS