At a point, you reach a line where all things are good, your friends grow close and the other people in your life bring such good joy to you; making the endless boring hours in your life seem so much more, than a borderline dead heart pulse.
You sometimes reach out in search for others in pain, somtimes you look out seeking for help, you guide that trust, you deticate, you work hard to keep it pure. You make promises, you make comitments. You even go so far to keep it, to keep yourslef feeling worthy, to make someone or yourself feel not so pointless. For finding someone in this world that takes the time to really care an actually does when they tell you isnt easy to find. Such things that supposivly no one else would, except for you an them to share, to converse, to make better to improve an connect within the very beating souls that seek the one true love that is always torn away. For the simple meaning of caring; the heart is the 1st to step to take the blow, for its the quickest an most evident part that feels the pain first an falls the hardest. In some caseS the soul reaches past, it seeks what is so rare to find, it opens up an trys to feel as if its finally found the key, to unlock the broken ties that eat away tomenting it an the ones it loves. This my freinds is what affects you when you've been hurt, lied to , stepped on, betrayed, decived, rejected etc. The core of your soul is the one thing, that wont lie to you, it knows when to forget or forgive but sometimes connection's become so deep, they become so vastly connected an deticated, it might soon become blinded by all. At this point the heart is all that is left exsposed since the soul is unable to protect it. Vunerable is feels everything wether good or bad no matter how deep the situitaion or encounters it faces, everything impacts it an i will admit; i myself dont forget but i do forgive, but there is one exception as goes the following. When a person goes to an extent to make connections an meaingful realtions with another, specailly if the other suffers from pains an past memories often left alone an un-cured. Such one's that constantly leave them in misery keeping them from thier full natural happy self, unable to enjoy life an its little wonders, you must wonder why would this person even bother to care? for maybe this person shares the same pain an suffering an know-how of the similair things that this victim so elegantly shares an conveys in need of help. When they connect ill tell you this, somthing happens on a level of the human nature that would make the average get all teary, but honestly those two people talk deeper every word spoken is vital to the others self esteem, they become close fast an learn alot about more an about each other rapidly. This is a rare thing an some call this love, some call this a good balance of chemisty or better yet a meaning to be have a good future toghter; as freinds an possibly more.know i must ask you this: What happens when after a while, things become more than they were meant to be, an the one that once suffered, decides to throw everything away that the other slaved an worked hard to make that connection to; with them? Regretting is evident in some cases an in most this become more so, specially when people use others to move on with there own stuggles. Nothing is healed in this situation but one thing will become more so clear an that is what now happens to the one who did actually care about the suffering an pain the other was going through. That all is erased an so is the very memory of them. For if anyone has ever suffered through this..... i understand your pain an the suffering you've endured bless you all an i wish all an eternity of happiness from any pain an suffering.
