Where You Reside
I see you there
Lying on your lawn
I stare at this photograph
I know that you're gone
Here is another picture
We are standing side by side
Tears come to my eyes
As I sit by the tide
I look at the setting sun
As I think about my past
I cry at the thought
That we couldn't last
I look at our memories
Through tear stained eyes
I cry at your memory
And of when my heart died
So I gaze to the heavens
Where you reside
I say one last time
Goodbye, my truest love, goodbye.
The Bartman
This was written by me many years ago when I lost my first love in 9th grade. Kristi died October 17, 1986. 4 months later, my best friend also died, which in turn gave this poem dual meanings.
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You Forgot to Say Goodbye
There were times when you were down
And I was there to guide
There were times when I was pained
And you were by my side
But this I can't handle
You forgot to say goodbye
We were the best of friends
That had the best of times
No one could split us up
Though they tried many times
I just can't understand
You forgot to say goodbye
They say friends are friends forever
No matter what may happen
I will always be your friend
Even after what has happened
Just the same, I really wish
You had said goodbye
These days I'm alone
Far too much for my own good
I wish you were here again
I'd bring you back if I could
At least for time
For you to say goodbye
At times I wonder
Why did it happen to you?
At other times I wish
That I had been there too
Because I was not there
You never said goodbye
There are times when I think
And remember us together
There are days when I see
That our friendship is forever
But the truth of the matter is
You forgot to say goodbye
Damn that person
Who thought he was cool
Damn the person
Who proved to be a fool
Damn the person who didn't allow
You to say goodbye
Through all of this anger
And all of this madness
All that it has done
Is increase my own sadness
Most of it because
You couldn't say goodbye
Through all of the years
That two people are friends
It becomes so damn painful
When death is how it ends
And the most painful of all is
That you couldn't say goodbye
Now as I suffer
Through all of my sorrow
I realize time passes
And still there's the morrow
But I wish there was yesteryear
So you could say goodbye
Now that I think
And remember that day
I see all the words
That we couldn't even say
Now I see, as I look back
I wouldn't be allowed one last goodbye
So now, my friend
In the heavens above
I painfully say this
With all of my love
I'll remember the good times
I'll cry at the sad
I'll laugh at the funny
And shun away the bad
And so I say this, one final time
Goodbye, my dearest friend, forever goodbye.
In honor of John, my best friend who died on February 10, 1988.
