i just writing to get stuff off my mind , i have alot of stress in my life right now, i some times dont know if i can keep on going, but i know i have to. i dont talk to anyone, i hold everything that happens inside and i know one day its going to be bad thing for everyone, cause i will just blow up and well thats a bad thing. but i dont know if i can go on after all thats going on is over if it turns out for the worst, it will kill me to much and so i and hoping that it will turn out great, i guess i will have to wait and see. all i know life can suck so much. and thank god for having family, that is helping me......