I know that everything happens for a reason but why? Are these reasons really that great? You have something great starring you in the face and you pass it up for the possibility of something you have wanted for a while and that turns sour and the person you passed up ends up in a fucked up relationship or so called relationship. You find something with somone else that has the possibility of being good but you still wonder what could have been. Why did you pass it up? Why did you let the power that the other person had (has) over you control you? And what about this new person who you have strong feelings for? Were you supposed to be with the person you passed up or are you supposed to be with the person that you might have something great with now? Did you do the right thing by this or did you totally fuck up your life as well as the life of someone else? You see what it has done to you and to the other person and no good has come of it but you still have this other person who says they love you and you want to believe but you are worried about it. Are you able to move on and forget the pain you have not only caused yourself but the pain you have cause another person and be totally with. Are you able to forget the person that has that powerful hold over you? IF so how do you forget it? How do you get them out of your life and how are you able to move on? HOW IN THE HELL DO I GET MYSELF INTO THESE PROBLEMS????????????
