| subject: | The Journey Continues... |
| post date: | 2006-11-16 01:52:23 |
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Tuesday,
August 2nd, 2005
7:17 pm
Created by
Chellie (Me)
The Journey Continues...
It's still the same, dark and alone.
The demons are fighting their way in, and I have no place to escape.
These demons are within me from the experiences I have known...they hide within my very soul...gnawing at my every existence. I want to scream, but I have no voice...I want to release these things within me that are so twisted and frayed. So many walls building up around me, so little time to tear them down.
The distance grows near, and yet, I am in an empty space. Within myself. Nothing seems to break the silence I have created for myself. I'm not strong enough to raise my sword and fight these demons alone. I fall to my knees and tremble, asking God to just end the pain "NOW"...I scream..."Now God, just take all these dark places from my memory!"
I'm walking step by step towards something now...not exactly sure what it is..I pull back a few steps..."I'm scared God"..."You have given me life to do what?" I feel I have no existence...I feel so empty. Then I start feeling my feet slide forwards...I think to myself, "I'm not doing this...what is happening to me? Why am I being pushed forward?" I look up and see that He is watching me. "Okay, I will walk forward, God, But I won't like it" |
