Snowbird's blog: "my life"

After a long emotional week I'm going back to Durham today. My heart is still broken and will be for a very long time. My Uncle meant the world to me. I promised him I would make sure the baby I have in September will know of him and love him just as much as Joshua and Sara do. I still can't really eat. I sleep maybe an hour at the time. It's gonna be rough. It still doesn't seem real. Like a horrible nightmare that I'll wake up from at any moment. Thought I'd be out of tears to cry, but they seem to have a continuous streak down my cheeks. I don't know when I'll be back online but to all my old friends and new on fubar, love you all and please be safe. Please remember that life is too short to taken anything for granted.

My uncle died on Monday. He was only 42. He and his wife had gone to take a nap, but later on he wouldn't wake up. They worked on him for an hour before they pronounced him dead from cardiac arrest. My heart is so completely shattered. He was the greatest guy ever. We were a lot alike in some ways which made us very close. When I heard the news I fell to my knees and started crying and screaming. I know he is in a better place, but this was just so sudden and unexpected. Daddy came to get me this morning and I have been at my grandmother's all day trying to grasp the reality. Steve could always make you laugh even if you didn't feel like it. He was just so lovable. I can't believe he's really gone....