Okay, so here it is... Two days before Thanksgiving. While I try my damndest to be thankful of everything I DO have... I still can not help but to think of what I don't have, and the crap that has been happening. So, I'm just going to get it out of my system, and hope it works.
So, Friday, I get laid off my job. A permanent layoff. So, I have a new baby in the house and no job. That's just great, eh? And, right before the holidays?? How freaking nice is that? I got a decent severance package, but what do I do about Christmas? Use all the last money I'll get from my job to give the kids a Christmas? I mean, I do qualify for unemployment, but as many people know, it only goes so far. So, either I give the kids a nice Christmas, or save the money for things we really need. With the economy the way it is, who knows how long it'll be before I find another job. And, when I do, I'll be starting all over again from the bottom. This SOOOO sucks.
Another thing, I found out today that I have CIN II cells in my cervix. Which is grade 2 abnormal cells. That doesn't mean I have cancer, but if they don't get the abnormal cells out, it could turn into cancer. Lovely news, eh? blah.... So, since I got laid off, my insurance runs out on Sunday. So, the doctor scheduled me for a LEEP procedure tomorrow to remove the abnormal cells. If you don't know what a LEEP procedure is, a LEEP uses a thin wire loop electrode which is attached to an electrosurgical generator. The generator transmits a painless electrical current that quickly cuts away the affected cervical tissue in the immediate area of the loop wire. Then, they send the tissue to be tested for cancer. But, hopefully, I don't have to worry about all that. {keeping my fingers crossed} Cause if there is anything else wrong, I won't have the insurance to cover it. That sucks, doesn't it? But, it's life, what can you do?
Okay, so on to the next thing. I found out this morning that my aunt has cancer. I don't know yet what kind or to what extent. But, this totally sucks. She's my mom's sister, and I love her to death. So, hopefully the docs can take care of that quickly, but who knows with cancer?
So, all that on top of one my bestest friends in the world having cancer. I pray every day that he gets well.
I'm still trying to figure out, why is it the nice people that always get shit on?
Sooooo... I guess I'm grateful that I still got my kids and family, a roof over my head, and food in our stomachs. That's the most important stuff, right?
