A cold loney night
I rocked and cried myself to sleep
so many times in a darkend loney room
Asking God so many times ... WHY???
WHY cant no one love me when I have so much love to give?
WHY... Does he use me as a punch bag for his amusment ?
WHY ... am I ignored , Do I deserve this?
WHY... Can I not escape this torment?
I know I need to be strong
To stop the shaking and shivering
The weeping into my pillow
I find comfort in a cold spare bed in a cold spare room
My safe haven away from the fear
I lay my head down gasping for air as my tears become loud sobs
I am begining to calm and the house is all quiet
I lay down my aching head , My limbs feel so numb and dead
He dont care what he has done, His asleep now that his had his fun
I turn to the only friends I have here at the dead of night
I am sure my cats know how I hurt as they each snuggle to protect me
From the cold loney night.