FLPoet's blog: "why me"

what do you call love that ends in pain? what do you do when someone leaves a stain upon your soul? what can i do to make you understand? i use my words to speak a thousand truths, why do yours turn to lies? why is it i open up and feel completely free, and you just feel torn and raped? free me from this frozen and cold less being, you wont to be from me just to be alone! while you cry apart of me dies when i see your eyes my soul gets torn in two and heart breaks while you cry! these are words that i use to love you with and if my words make you feel sad then why do you love my mouth? I'm shouting this at you i can't take it anymore i've told i loved you a million times i've held you close just to feel our hearts beat as one! why do you push me away I am i too much to take am i loving you too much? is there such a thing?!

I'm giving you all my e-mail because i am unable to write you all so i'm doing it this way so if any of you want to get to know me better here it is. mylife247_21@yahoo.com if any of you have yahoo please send me and add to IM so we can chat. thank you so very much!

i came to while you were sleeping, you looked like an angel who lost her wings, i dropped to my feet and i prayed for you, you started to cry and i kissed your tears away you came to me in my nightmare, and you saved my soul from the devil's grip, you took me away and made love to me till dawn, we held each other all through the night, singing love songs that'll make you cry i came to you while you bathing, washing away your scars from over the years, you mended my broker from all my one night stands, we talked about it over a simple drink, my head felt numb and i couldn't feel my feet

there's so many things I'd love to say, things like please don't...stay, only the words don't come out right, and just when I'm about to find courage you're already gone i wish i could change everything, the stupid things I've said, the selfish things I've done, but that wouldn't help cause you're already gone i was at a bar and that song played you know the, the ending lyric hit him it was "Lost with out you", and thats how i feel in-side, i feel like apart has been amputated and you're my missing limb i have this feeling deep in my gut, I'll die alone cause you're not with me, And the only breathe they can save will be yours but you're gone and I'll be watching you from heaven maybe, I'll grow from this, maybe this is what i need, maybe one day we'll meet again, maybe just maybe you'll tell me not go

I'm facing a little of a problem oh where do i start??!! ok pulling it together i have a boy friend and i've been talking to this lady friend of mine i knew her for about year however we haven't met each other online (i know how that sounds) well me and her say i love you and yes she does know i'm gay lol ok moving on well my boy friend was over and she called me but i didn't answer it and i told him that it was her and that she's going through a lot of things and i'm just helping her out. i need both a womans point of view and mans one on this too please cast your judgments a side. i don't feel like he thinks i'm either cheating on him or i'm a liar what do i do?

HIM LYRICS "Don't Close Your Heart" I know how it feels to be on your own In this cruel world where hearts are bound to turn to stone Where you are alone And tired of breathing It's all going wrong And you just can't stand the pain any more You're too numb to believe in In anything Baby just don't close your heart Baby just don't close your heart Baby just don't close your heart Darling don't let me down I know how easy it is to let go Surrender to despair lurking at your door To lose your soul and all your feelings Strenght all gone And so many things left unsaid And deeds undone You've stopped caring 'Cause it's all in vain Baby just don't close your heart Baby just don't close your heart Baby just don't close your heart Darling don't let me down You are so alone And tired of breathing It's all going wrong And you just can't stand the pain Baby just don't close your heart Baby just don't close your heart Baby just don't close your heart Darling don't let me down Don't let me down Don't let me down Just don't let me down

HIM LYRICS "Wicked Game" World was on fire, no one could save me but you It's strange what desire will make foolish people do I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you And I'd never dreamed that I'd need somebody like you No, I wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) No, I wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) ..with you (this world is only gonna break your heart) What a wicked game to play To make me feel this way What a wicked thing to do To let me dream of you What a wicked thing to say You never felt this way What a wicked thing you do To make me dream of you No, I wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) No, I wanna fall in love (this world is only gonna break your heart) ..with you World was on fire, no one could save me but you It's strange what desire will make foolish people do No, and I never dreamed that I'd love somebody like you I'll never dream that I lose somebody like you, no No, I wanna fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart) (No, I wanna fall in love (This world is only gonna break your heart) ..with you (This world is only gonna break your heart) No, I... (This world is only gonna break your heart) (This world is only gonna break your heart) Nobody loves no one