I just found out I'll have to endure another lumbar spine MRI to get to see the Neurosurgeon I want to see. The first MRI was 45 minutes long, and by the time it was over, I was in so much pain I could barely move off of the MRI machine.
Apparently, this is required because my last MRI is over 6 months old. I will also, of course, have to pay another shitty ass co-pay. I am so sick of my medical issues that I really can't stop thinking about killing myself.
I am not happy in my job, I feel like I'm struggling just to make it through the day, every day. The last 3 antidepressants I tried just made me even more suicidal.
I'm sure I sound like I'm being a whiny baby. I'm sure there are millions of people out there with problems 10x worse than mine. It doesn't change the fact that I don't think I can handle another week of this. No amount of therapy has been helpful. I'm starting to feel like inpatient treatment or suicide are my only options.
I bust my ass at work 5 days a week just so I can suffer all day and night. My physical and emotional pain are really beginning to crush me. I don't have the ability paint anymore, which is really what I want to do. I hurt too much, both emotionally and physically.
Sorry, to those who care about me on here. I promise I won't try to kill myself. But I can't promise I'll be pleasant.
I appreciate you, those who care.
PS - It's been exactly 10 years since my mom died from cancer, as of Nov. 24th, 2009.
I am in need of help. I need to move 8 large paintings from Indianapolis, Indiana, to Kansas City, KS.
They're from my art show that has come and gone. Nothing sold and I don't have much money to work with to get them back home.
ANY IDEAS, ANYONE??
*HUGS ALL*
NSFW = Not Safe For Work
Why do people get all butt-hurt about others flagging their nude or scantily-clad photos NSFW?
Think about it a little. How many typical employers would let you look at scantily-clad or nude photos while on the job?
Do you think I have a point?
You Are 85% Kinky |
You're open to any and all sexual experiences, as long as they're safe. You see the bedroom as the primary place for all your adventures. But that's not to say that the bedroom is the only place you get kinky! |
You Are 20% Emo |
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