crys's blog: "tearful goodbyes"

Seriously, does everything that could possibly go wrong in my life have to all happen at the same damn time?! I mean really.. what the heck have i done for this shit. So many times we try to do our best, but it just isn't ever good enough We try not to let the past effect us, but it always sneaks up when we're not expecting it tell me what do you do when ur family no longer cares, and ur friends are no longer there? where do you turn when there is no one left.. who do you talk to when they're all gone, and it seems that you have no one.. not even god seems to be on your side anymore.. then what?!

My eyes are like clouds and My tears are like streams I thought you loved me but You've shattered my dreams My heart was so delicate No more pain could it bear I warned it was fragile and to handle it with care So, i gave you my heart And you've broken it in two But that will never brake apart My feelings for you. Without you, it's not easy And it adds to the pain. From that moment you said, 'Good-bye' My eyes began to rain. I will lock you deep down In the depths of my soul And forever you'll be with me The memories I'll hold. So, I guess for the moment You don't even want to be friends, But, forever and until eternity I'll love you to the end.

Since this is the way it's going to be, I'll sum it all up with poetry... Where do I even start explaining the way I feel? I just keep telling myself: this can't be happening, this isn't real. In my heart it seems there is a sudden void. You built me up, only to break me down; now everything appears destroyed. My life has suddenly stopped- where do I go from here? I guess this just goes to show, things aren't always as they appear. I'm not here to make you feel guilty, nor will I ever be. Just know, I will always remember, the way it was with you and me.

IT'S HARD TO SAY IT'S OVER WHEN YOU DON'T WANT TO BUT IT'S THAT OR BE CAUGHT FEELING BLUE IT'S A SHAME THAT THE RELATIONSHIP BETWEEN ME AND YOU COULD BE TORN UP SO EASILY YOU SAID YOU LOVED ME BUT NOW AS I LOOK BACK, IT COULD'VE BEEN SAID JUST TO PLEASE ME I HATE WHEN IT'S ME THAT'S FEELING LOW TELLING ME THE NEWS WAS A REALLY HARD BLOW AND IT TEARS ME UP TO THINK OF YOU AND I SPLIT I'D RATHER BLEED BLOOD THAT FLOWS OUT THICK THAN BE SEPARATED FROM YOU SOMETIMES I WONDER HOW COULD YOU BUT I GUESS I FAILED IN A SECTION BUT I'M COOL BECAUSE IT ONLY TAKES ME ONE TIME TO LEARN A LESSON MAYBE YOU AND I IS OLD NEWS I JUST WASN'T TRYING TO SEE THAT WHAT I WAS TRYING TO SEE WAS YOU AND I TOGETHER BUT IT TAKES TWO TO MAKE THAT WORK, REGARDLESS OF THE WEATHER YA' KNOW I SAY THAT I'M COOL,BUT I'M NOT I SAY THAT IT'S ALRIGHT, BUT IT'S NOT I ONLY HAVE THREE THINGS TO SAY TO YOU ONLY AND THAT'S THAT I LOVED YOU, WANTED NOTHING MORE THAN TO BE WITH YOU, AND I WAS ALWAYS TRUE. I WOULD SAY THAT I'D RATHER BE LONELY..YOU KNOW THAT'S A LIE JUST ALWAYS KNOW I LOVE YOU!