on the 19th of november we had a very close family members father pass away and, at the same time i was in sacramento with my daughter as she was trying to give birth, in which she finally had to have a c section and our baby was born with problems, now in my heritage of native american, when one old soul/spirit passes there's a birth for that spirit to go to, but you see my dilema is this i was not able to be there with my best friend to comfort him when he needed his friends and at the same time i was where my child needed me to be, i just dont think that i can get passed the feelings of guilt. My friend was there for me when my mother passed and i will eternally love and respect him for this , its rough to figure out the reasoning of all this, stop by my page and view the awesome tribute he drew in respect for his father