ok so... i have no job right now and havent in the past 4 months because the bitch at my last job said that i wasnt doing what i was supposed to be... and that has made my life a living hell since she fired me... i lost my car.. i have no money... and now for the first time since i was 15 i have to rely on others to help me... and the ironic thing is the ones that i have to rely on i have helped so much through the years and they complain and bitch about having to help me... knowing that i dont want their fucking help i would much rather just do things for myself... and on top of it all i cant seem to find anyone that would want to be with me... a couple that showed a lil promise are now either with other ppl or just ignoring me for some reason...im really starting to feel worthless... i have nothing and i really dont see any point in my life right now...im really starting to understand why ppl commit suicide.. although i feel i amd stronger than that and i could never do that to my family... but i have a job interview tomorrow so hopefully that will go well... later