I have been pursuing something I don't think exists...I have put rules in my life...to bring order and some sense of purpose to it. I stopped dating younger men and would only go out with guys my age. Well this has not been working. Men my age are tired,have lots of baggage,and are not able to keep up physically. cannot deal with erection problems. I am not jesus, I cannot make the limp strong..lol...NEW AGENDA>>>Stop being so picky..."The most beautiful and wonderful things in this world can neither be touched or seen but felt only with the heart"... Helen Keller