Surrounded by walls of my own making
Best to leave the fantasy that dies over and over
While I am prisoner to what brings me pain
Best to live inside the walls of my own creation
Then allow them to be taken down again
I have not learned the lesson five times taught
Five times given
The price the same
Knowledge of that price still I allow those walls to fall
Only to put them back up
Once again scarred because of my own folly
No matter how many times I say it will never happen again
I take the walls down and slowly, brick by brick
I put them back up
Only to be lashed by reality as they are put back
Where they belong
Where they once stood
It is my lot in life to live behind those walls
Protected from the mistake that I make over and over
I will never learn the lesson
About pretty words and smiles
And once again I bear wounds that no one can see
Even if I wished them to
I expect no change
And shall be wary of any
I am now a jade figure
Living in this world
Where others throw words around like toys
I will never fall again
My walls will have to be stronger this time
Lest I foolishly take them down again
