As Im sitting here thinking about my life, one thing keeps coming to mind. This person who changed my life and I did nothing in return for him. He is now possibly dying, and Im not by his side where I should be, because I was selfish and stupid. I screwed up the one thing in my life that was good. So Im wondering.. why do you only appreciate something after it is gone? 3 years have passed, and I still love him, and will always love him. I have realized that Im not happy without him. All I can say is that I hope he knows how I feel. To all who read this, dont be afraid to love, take that chance, and dont be stupid like I was.