so im pretty sure now that im gonna die an old maid. im never gonna find true love, never gonna get married and have children. i have had the most fucked up week. my own family had seen this coming. they knew since i was young that i was never the one to get married and have kids. you're just not the type they would say. all i want is to be happy. why can't i be happy? i work hard very hard, im a good person, i'm always there when people need me, in fact i go out of my way and sacifice shit for those bitches. i've missed on so much in my life jus to make someone else happy. i jus don't know anymore. i'm writing this in hopes that if i get it off my chest that i would feel better, but it's makin it worse.