Things around here aren't going so great. My check has not shown up yet, which is very odd since it is a goverment check and is supposed to arrive on the 3rd of the month. It is the 5th and still no check. No check means I am still here in El Paso and not on the bus to be with my Baby like I am supposed to be right now. Being that there is speculations that since the roomie is the one that goes to the box to get the mail all the time cause she is the only one with the key, that she is hiding it from me. If that is true or not, I don't know. SSI said it was mailed out and that I have to wait to see if it shows up and if not have the roomie write a letter saying I am being evicted and need my check right now and they will see if they can write me one out at the office. Now the thing is to see if it shows up tomorrow and if not see if the roomie will even take me down there to do such. I will more then likely lose my internet tomorrow since their phone is being put in because well, I'm supposed to already be gone. Not even sure if I will get to use the new phone to talk to Vicky or do anything else. I feel lost, confused, trapped and I don't know what to do. And all of this because of the fucking roomie messing up my bank account and me having to cancel direct deposit so I would have my whole check to move. Now I don't have shit. I just wish I knew someone that had a credit card that could pay for my bus ticket out of here and once I got the check I would pay them back. I'm being told that I need to figure something out and get the fuck out of here and I'm just not sure how much more I can take. I don't care about my boxes of stuff anymore. I don't care about movies and stuffed animals and books anymore. I just want to be out of here and be with Vicky and finally be happy. Why is that being so hard? Sighs and just goes to try and calm down again.
