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Jenn
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Nov 21, 2006
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Gender: Female
Status: In a Relationship
Age: 25
Sign: Pisces
City: Middleburg
State: FLORIDA
Country: US
Signup Date: 03/21/06
Friday, December 01, 2006
Life stays interesting!!!
Current mood: depressed
As life would have it Steven is going back to driving a truck sort of over the road. He found a really good job where he will at least be home every week. The closer he gets to it getting time to leave the more troubled I get for some reason. I know it will be fine and the company tells us he will be home every couple of days and have the weekends off but I still have that strange funny feeling. It's like since he came in back in July off the road we haven't spent a day apart. Steven has been awesome through all of my complaining and worries though. He said that is this job would affect our relationship in any way shape or form he would quit in a second. He keeps telling me that the job isn't worth losing us over and that he would find a job making less money but is home everyday. I know he would in a second but I still know how finances and life works. I know it will be alright and it will just take some getting use to. As everyone knows when we first met he drove a truck. Though we missed each other a lot everyday it was ok and we dealt with it. Now things are a little different. Our relationship has grown so much since then. It seems like forever ago when we first started dating. Even though I know we will miss each other dearly I believe that we will be fine. Our relationship has been though harder times and harder trials. Still I can't help but wonder how this will directly affect both of our lives. At first it didn't seem that long just spending a couple of days apart but now the closer it gets to become a way of life it seems like forever. We have agreed to give it at least a month and if we both still feel this strong about not liking it and if he isn't getting in as much as we would both like him to then he will quit. Hands down just walk away. It really made me feel good to know that he would do that for me. Even though he likes the company he will be working for and everything he would just walk away if asked him to. I promised Steven if it started affecting how I felt for him and our relationship then I would tell him in a hurry and I will stick to that. I know we will be able to talk everyday and we are going to get him a computer with hopefully a webcam for him and I. That would be nice so I could at least see him everyday. My mind keeps going in circles right now. I really do worry about him going back on the road. I have a fear that he might start liking it and not coming home at all, I have a fear that it will but to big of a strain and break us up. I have a fear that he might start missing how he once lived before me and go back to his ex. Then I start with the fears of him driving everyday, falling asleep, or getting in an accident and things like that. I can't wait for the next couple of weeks to be over so I can get over these childish fears and worries… Hmmmm, gotta love life's little twist and turns. For sure keeps it interesting….
