The tears flow down from my eyes
An endless waterfall of pain and fear
Last chance to hold the element of love
Dropped from my hands that were reaching out
A person that meant so much to me
To greet me in the morning
Her smile so bright as the sun.
Clouds that are dark now gloom my life
She has disappeared from my cascading sight
In my heart she holds within memories
That will never go away
Too hard for me to walk one step
All I want and could need more than ever.
Her kindness that she was willing to let me have
Now it feels like a curse on the actions I took
The only person I can blame is myself
Grief for someone that isn't dead physically
But in a way I don't believe my dreams will come true
Speak the phrase that what I was told over and over
Don't worry on many things when many things have yet to come.
Part of me wants to forget about the one
Who helped me smile
My mind wants to move on but I refuse to coexist
I was too slow and not strong to make that choice
Five words that could have made all the difference
Only one choice that I am allowed to make
Live in the life my thoughts have created.
Sitting alone feeling sorry and hating myself
That is not what I am going to do
Regain my sense of calm
Stand proud and strong and on my own two feet...
