Ok for those who don't know i am Rae! i have 2 beautiful Sons, William-2 And Ian-4, I am a stay at home mom and my Boy Friend- Roy, is a truck driver. yes i know tough being a truskers girl, but i usually see him every week, and the Boys love em!
Ok now for what i realy am writing this for... ok a lil background first. My dad was told he has lung cancer in early march, my mom decided not to tell me til Mother's day! rock on right! well to say the least the last 6 months or so have been kinda rough on him and the rest of us. But he has been doing well in fact he is done with chemo, and radiation for now! the lump is gone! but he still has to take shots to help build up his red blood cell count has been taking those for about a week after he stoped teh chemo and stuff. aparently he wasn't feeling good today and went to the hospital, knowing anything about this disease you would know you don't fool around when you feel the slightest bit out of the norm, well other then the reaction to the treatments. well anyway they ended up admitting him this afternoon with Phenomina ( i know i probaly spelled it wrong but you get the jest of it right) so now i am scared out of my wits! I guess you can say being informed is sometimes a lil too much. I know a lot of people who develpoe Cancer, don't antually die from the disease it is usually something else that attackes the imune system that ends their lives! sometime the cancer doesn't get a chance to really do what is it trying to do and other things take that persons life! i have had many trails and tribulations latly and this is just not helping my mental state AT ALL i am really at a lose for what to do! i know there is really nothing i can do to help other then hope and Pray to the Gods he makes it thru to see my kids graduate, God i know that maybe asking alot but i would be totaly lost with out him! we all would be! no they havn't said what type of the phenomina it is yet, and i know this could be a minor thing but what if this is just the first in a long line hospital visits ok i aint afraid to admit it! I love my Dad and i would litteraly go NUTS if something happened to him! I want my kids to grow up remembering Grandpa and a healthy fun guy! i am scared and home alone! and if i don't keep it together i may just lose it altogether!!
