Today I have a few moments to think about how things have gone for me the past year. I am preparing things for x-mas in my tiny basement area and this space is slowly becoming livable, something I really didn't have or feel for pretty much close to 3 years! Granted there are still things yet to unpack... but the last year has been one of many transitions. In November of last year I said goodbye to everything I have known my whole life, other than the butt-load of crap I carry with me from place to place. I got a rude welcome by the Colorado weather and as usual got screwed around by stupid people in stupid apartment leasing offices. However, I was not about to let any of that stop me or get me down. The best thing is I got a job right off the bat and it has done well for me all year. Now the winter is much calmer, I don't have to lease an apartment, and my friends and family are just great. When I first came here I wrote a blog about how I didn't miss Texas and how I was not truely concerned about not seeing anyone for a while. My man and I went to Texas in October, and though I do miss friends and family there, I still don't miss Texas. I wish Texas wasn't so fucking big so I could be a little closer to my loved ones, but maybe next year I can become a better communicator, at least, and keep in touch with them?? That is going to be my New Years resolution I think, because I am actually getting sad that I don't talk to people for months on end. I am pretty sure that I will be looking for employment elsewhere in about 6 months adn I would love to start school next fall. It feels great to look back and know that the decision to come to this state has made a major improvement in my happiness. And that all I need is to get a fire lit under my ass for the rest of the things that I would prefer to change in my life. I almost felt for a while that I might go back into a rut, but today I have decided that I cannot let myself do that, I must keep moving forward and get on with the next chapter in my life!
♥,
Spooky B.
