I'm in such a pissy mood that I am about to snap!
I had to go to the fucking hospital again for breakthrough pain because of my stupid back. Obviously I keep hearing the same damn thing... surgery, surgery, surgery!
Well hey idiots, I said I would do it so why am I still here in fucking pain?! I mean I did everything else I was supposed to do.
Yet no, I have to go up to Hershey to have 'my surgeon' look at me and tell me the same crap I've been hearing... no surgery.
Why can't they do it down here if they feel it is so needed and know that Dr. Vora won't do it up at Hershey? Freaking medical bullshit is why.
I mean yeah I get the idea that Dr. Vora knows my case better than anyone considering he did my first surgery but come on. Stop throwing me around and pumping me so full of narcotics that I am almost immune to them.
It is like I am a chicken with its head cut off right now. Running in circles not knowing what to do because, guess what.. my brain is fried and I'm dying. Hypothetically of course. Yet if this crap continues who knows what long term effects it will have on my physical and emotional self.
Blah, I'm tired and hurt and all I want right now is a 'fix' of IV narcotics. Jeez I'm an addict, thanks doctors...I sound like a freaking heroin junkie now.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!
