So today is my birthday and it seems to be a reflection on what a huge failure my life has been.... It seems like everyone has someone except for me... and I haven't had someone who loves me in a long time and I'm not talking about family or anything like that I know they love me but I still would like a companion... someone told me being single is ideal... I think that is really easy to say that when you have someone... I am not sure how I feel about my job... I don't know how to meet people... I don't know why I can't meet someone... maybe I just need to move and start over but that scares the crap out of me and I don't know where I would go... this is my birthday and I should be celebrating but I can seem to feel anything anymore....