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Why? Why does it hurt so much to fall in love? Love is supposed to feel good, but it seems like when you fall for someone you can't have then everything changes. For those that fall in love especially on this site, it seems some people on here fall in love with someone that already is marriage, but yet that person falls for someone that is on here. My heart has fall in love more than once it is true, but they say that you can be in love with more than one person.
Ugh, I really don't like how I am feeling. I am scared to be hurt. I am scared anyway because I have so much going on. Why? Why me?
So today I am once again faced with being single. Whats new? I always find the Liars, the one's that are controlling? The men that think I won't find out what they are doing. LIke being married and NEVER having ANY intentions of getting a divorce. The fact that he lied about that he isn't into BDSM when really he is and that his wife and him are looking for extra partners. The fact he said he was military when he isn't. WTF Yet I am the one that is controlling, and I buy people for affection and their friendship. PFFFT! UGH so hurt, frustrated, mad and of course now because of one man I am not going to be able to trust any man on fubar Good luck trying to get me to open up
Her heart knows that she has a ring on her finger, yet it seems that after 14 years of marriage she feels like things are falling apart. He barely touches her, she does everything she can to show him love, but he would rather Play video games, watch tv, work, sleep, write a book that will NEVER get done or published, draw skinny naked women, though he keeps saying that he doesn't like skinny women, she feels deep down it isn't so.
Her heart wants to break, but it seems as though it is cold as ice. She knows not what love is anymore. Men talk to her, and tell her things, but deep down she doesn't believe it. They say things to her that have been said before. Things only to get her naked, or to have sex with her. She knows the game, and hates the player that plays the game. She wants a dream, a dream that can not be, or ever will be.
She wants the romance, the man of movie's, movie's such as The Notebook, 7 brides for 7 brothers, Step Up, and any other type romantic movie that you can think of. A tear streams down my face as she wishes either the man she once loved would come back to her, or he would do her the favor and let her go.
So I realize that everyone can read and more than likely respond to this, but not too long ago I found out that I am Bipolar. The sad thing is I really hate being on medication yet I have to be or else my moods aren't stable. The sad thing is I am in what I feel is not a good relationship, he has only laid hands on me a couple times, but most time's I am the one that starts the violent fights. I don't do it a lot it's actually very rare, but my other half always gets pissed off over the simpliest of things, I have talked to him about how it makes me feel and that is scares me, because he throws his controller, and says the games cheats, and games are supposed to be fun. I hate when he throws the controllers because one of them IS after all mine and they are not cheap to replace. They are the cordless remote controllers. There are times where I wish he would just leave me but I am afraid I wouldn't make it on my own.
