so i know i havent been on in a long time i felt the need to get back intouch with some important things in my life only to have them coming crushing down around my head. thought i was smart enough this time around to fix this very very weird perdictiment that i find myself in. my best friend and i mean the kind of friend you tell everything to who you love like no other, is seriously thinking about marrying my sister. now some part of me says good for them. another bigger part of me is screaming on the inside ARE U STUPID OR SOMETHING? my sister not to bash on her but is the type of women who had 3 kids to just leave them and runaway from her problems. and this man presents more than just problems. i mean we know eachother better than we know ourselfs and he knows everything about her and what she has done. now i more than anybody know that if people want to change they can. but unless hell has frozen over she isnt and hasnt changed. so i ask my self what do i do? this situation is more complicated than i can say at this time, one because it causes me too much pain to think about it. and the other because a small part of me is overjoyed. sounds crazy huh? well the part where choosing comes in because hes a very very good friend and i dont want to see him hurt and because she is my sister and i know what game she is playing. so do i be the good friend and stick to our vow to eachother or do i be the good sister and take it all in with blind eyes?
