GYPSY HEART KNIGHT to QOTD's blog: "being my self"

thank my beautiful sister "light and dark" yes i use the dark nature to hide my light and most of the time... for my reality, i am a care giver, i go into the homes of the elderly and help in the smallest of ways.... cook them a meal, clean small things, do errands, or simply sit and talk, and sometimes i take my daughter... to see the joy light up in their face when they see her makes me cry sometimes for no reason... i know i did something right in that very moment in time when some one i helped simply touches my arm, or hugs me, and tells me they love me...all cuz i do something that i consider to be the right thing to do... and when i chill runs down my spine as i walk away and suddenly feels tears of joys well up ... i know i was in the right place at the right time and did what was simply asked of me... with no reservations or arguments... but these moments are used to the advantage of ppl who will use my kind hearted nature... and that is y i sit so comfortable in my darkness...

i have been learning alot these last few weeks or so...so here i am laying it all out for my friends and others who happen try stay along , i hope my words find a peace that resonates in them... i am not a crusader, i am not trying to make a point, i struggle each day, with everday life... i find comfort in music and poetry and music... here are some of my personal experiences... i am prior service,,, that means yes i know what guns are, i can break down, clean, put back together , , reload, and fire w not heart burn...i have faced the fact that uncle sam has little or no value to my life, therefore i have to hold it in high value or esteem, it come down to how much do i value my life abouve them.. I worked with many a vet, and my heart pours out more for them as each one crosses my path, to see a hugh kind heated man or woman who was used for uncle sams own needs... yes i portary a dark hearted person in my pics, simply because i do not fear my own darkness, and just because i do not gloat on it dose not mean it is not there... and if a straight laced man can not see beyond this front then so be it... i find beauty in the dark my gypsy heart finds the beaty and acceptance in all that surrounds me... i learned at a very young age from my grand parents that there are things in this world that are beyond the seen and tangable.... i have traveled the world over... literally... i do not fear makeing myself unique, for in those moments, i will never see and feel the same again... for ppl whos names i do not rememeber, i still remember the feelinging u gave me and the love u shared with me... and for the people i have just met u touch my heart in ways that r not seen, and for the future i welcome the unknown