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I Decided Back on March 24th that I wasn't happy living within the shell I was carrying around with me. Busting/rolling out of a Size 14, With way more than a MUFFIN top, more like a bunt cake! I was going to CHANGE, Starting with a calorie counting, drinking more water & green tea, and adding some calorie burning. I took out my Smart phone, downloaded the "LOSE IT" app, added my weight, height, age, and my goal weight. started walking 3 miles a day, eating under 1,300 calories a day. I also added a step counter accupedo, put a goal of 10,000 steps a day which I fell short of at first. I took Photo's, even though I hated my reflection looking back at me. Pushing 180, with a goal of 150 in site. I started walking my route twice a day. Weighing ounces and counting every calorie became a game to me. Not just putting in the food I ate but the butter I cooked it in, the salt I added. I used to think FRUIT & veggies were FREE.... wrong! My image of a pasta serving and a real serving was 3 times the right amount. 3oz of meat isn't the Steak you buy in the package. Potato chips~ I used to plow away 1/3 of the bag... now I count out 14 if I eat them at all. I'd rather eat a lot more than 14 and add 150 calories when I can eat My salads that are less than 120 calories and I add 4oz of buffalo chicken! So as the days went bye I started doing fitness challenges, squats, pushups, situps, planks, crunches, leg lifts...etc I ate my calories and when I got close to my allowed intake I'd exercise, to earn more calories, or burn them off. If you want something I believe you should EARN IT. I got down to 155 pounds and grabbed my Smart phone yet again and changed my goal to 130! I borrowed a friends Insanity work out. Bought weighs and work out clothes. I timed myself walking and wanted to beat my time everyday. After a workout I felt great!!! I knew I had done something not just thought about it. When it got late at night too dark to walk, I set my laptop up on my treadmill and walked... most nights in front of Facebook and FuBar, keeping my mind busy making it a routine not so much a chore. Many of you saw me walking while I was on cam in a lounge. Thanks for the motivation to most of you. My body began to shrink, my clothes loose. So off to buy new bra's, pants....etc I was a great feeling. The More active I became during the Summer swimming paddle boating, I started Running for the first time in my life. I am at the end of 7 weeks into Focus T25 and love it but No matter how many situps I've done, or crunches. My excess Skin is not going anywhere... Again looking in the mirror now at 133 pounds I see all my hard work has done me well, with clothes on. The naked truth.... shows sagging breasts, stretch marks, loose skin, caved in navel area. Seems like all the hard work I've done and all the weight I've lost Doesn't make me feel as Hopeful, kinda Jipped and unsatisfied when I see my hanging belly, makes me feel like I have so much further to go. Doing pushups, my Belly fat touches the floor, or just leaning forward there's no muscle around it to retain it in. I feel disfigured, low confidence...No one tells you that when you loose all that weight your body isn't going to go back to what you were in High school. People that see me in the everyday world have no idea what I hold with in, and under my clothing. It's not that I'm not proud of what I've accomplished but "I" See what they don't. I have decides that I'm going to a plastic surgeon On November 21st for a consult. I know I didn't gain this weight over night Nor did I Loose it that soon. But I Do not want to live with this hanging under me. I'm still the same person Just a smaller size that I used to be So From a size 14+ to a 0/2 I am looking forward to looking in the mirror without clothes and have the self esteem and confidence that I feel when I'm dressed. Thanks for taking the time to read my Blog This is me, and I am a Healthier smaller version of the BIGGER beautiful woman I Was.
