this is AHOD, he will enter your dreams and subtly devour you.
Be wary, there is quite a bit of writing on this page. The views and commentary expressed on it are the property of me, unless otherwise noted. By reading this you are agreeing not to be a complete moron when you attempt to contact me. By not reading this, you are making it me a quite easy for me to ignore you. Please, when you send me a friend request, put the word "chicken" in it, so I know you at least got this far. <3
I am an angry, hater type person, and I do not apologize. I give everyone I meet a chance to prove that they are worth knowing, and I am one of the most understanding people you will ever meet, if you can get past all the hurdles.
It's not people I hate really, it's concepts, thought processes....I have reason behind all of my behavior.
I hate... .x. Passive-Agressiveness .x. PETA .x. The Emo and Hardcore 'subculture' .x. Fake people .x. When people don't want to talk about anything but sex. [I will not cyber with you, I will not be your e-whore, I will not sit on cam for you so you can see my "smile", yes I do have msn, no you cannot have it.] .x. Hypocrites
.x.Trends, and people who follow them. [especially if they say it's not a trend I'm a goth! Goth is dead people, it died with the opening of Hot Topic.]
Okay, now that we've gotten through the negative...lets go to the positive [what little of it there is].
I am a cynic. Do not tell me to smile more. I do what I want motherlicker!
Oh right, positive.
I love music, mostly metal and industrial with a little bit of [sometimes] rap thrown in.
If you ever want to talk to me, expect random and sporadic comments. I don't really care if you're offended either. Especially if you talk to me first.
I play video games a lot, if I'm not answering you..I'm probably leveling my priest, or ignoring you. Or living, y'know, going places...hanging out with people IRL, I bet you didn't know people who play WoW do those kinds of things! Yes [some of us] do!
Some random things about me. .x. I love dragons [and I believe I probably was one in another life] .x. NIN is my favorite band. .x. I am nocturnal. .x.I believe that Satan lives under Wal-Mart. .x. I have phobias of garbage disposals, screwing in light bulbs and automatic doors. .x.I like to go off on tangents. .x.I am here to insult you, stare at you and make you feel quite uncomfortable.
All that aside, if you still want to talk to me, please by all means...hit me up in shoutbox, I love discussing just about everything under the sun. Of course, you have to be willing to actually talk. If you're on here, typing should be a skill that you have.
much love and kitten fetuses, barricade
beat my head to wake up cause I feel as if I'm sleeping past is in the heart and I am waiting for the rhythm feed the holy jaws no saying pain is the answer after all is gone the story leaves me feeling empty and all alone it leaves me feeling empty breathe we are all animals inside free the spirit is alive to guide us we're all alone and really feeling empty we're all alone when all revenge falls apart taken a step back from the start it leaves me feeling empty [Skinny Puppy/Empte]
this quote from Metal: A Headbangers Journey, pretty much sums up how I feel in general, as well as how I feel about music.
"Ever since I was 12 years old I had to defend my love for heavy metal against those who say it's a less valid form of music. My answer now is that you either feel it or you don't. If metal doesn't give that overwhelming surge of power that makes the hair stand up at the back of your neck, you might never get it, and you know what? That's okay, because judging by the 40,000 metalheads around me we're doing just fine without you."
Video Games:
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(last updated:May 12, 2009 @ 10:48 am)
Dance Dance Revolution, God of War, Final Fantasy, Shin Megami Tensei, Kingdom Hearts, Shadow Hearts, Unreal Tournament, World of Warcraft, Champions: Return to Arms, Rockband, Singstar, Jersey Devil.
Glory to the Sin'dorei! [lmao]
Sehrgiftig, 80 Blood Elf Mage on Shandris.
kill alliance. ^^
Music:
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"What are the primary ideologies or primary ideas that fuel Gorgoroth's music?" Gaahl: [long dramatic pause] SATAN... [drinks from wine glass]
Interests:
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music..metal and industrial in particular. writing [poetry, fantasy], reading, [Neil Gaiman, Terry Pratchett, Laurell K. Hamilton, Christine Feehan, Dean Koontz, E.E. Cummings, Poe, Emily Dickinson, Richard Lovelace, Stephen King, Storm Constantine, Robert Aspirin, Hideyuki Kikuchi, H.P Lovecraft, Donald Tyson, Henry Rollins, Sergei Lukyanenko], drawing, gaming, sarcasm, human interaction.
and this is awesome.
Some Quotes
Friedrich Nietzsche
-Although the most acute judges of the witches and even the witches themselves, were convinced of the guilt of witchery, the guilt nevertheless was non-existent. It is thus with all guilt.
-Fear is the mother of morality.
-In heaven, all the interesting people are missing.
-It is my ambition to say in ten sentences what others say in a whole book.
- The individual has always had to struggle to keep from being overwhelmed by the tribe. If you try it, you will be lonely often, and sometimes frightened. But no price is too high to pay for the privilege of owning yourself.
-There is not enough love and goodness in the world to permit giving any of it away to imaginary beings.
J.R.R Tolkien
-It does not do to leave a live dragon out of your calculations, if you live near him.
-Not all who wander are lost.
Terry Pratchett
-I'll be more enthusiastic about encouraging thinking outside the box when there's evidence of any thinking going on inside it.
-For animals, the entire universe has been neatly divided into things to (a) mate with, (b) eat, (c) run away from, and (d) rocks.
-It could not be happening because this sort of thing did not happen. Any contradictory evidence could be safely ignored.
-Seeing, contrary to popular wisdom, isn't believing. It's where belief stops, because it isn't needed any more.
-Voodoo is a very interesting religion for the whole family, even those members of it who are dead.
Eddie Izzard
-Cause Jesus I do think did exist, and he was, I think, a guy who had interesting ideas in the Gandhi-type area, in the Nelson Mandela-type area, you know, relaxed and groovy; and the Romans thought, "Relaxed and groovy?! No, no, no, no, no!" So they murdered him. And kids eat chocolate eggs, because of the color of the chocolate, and the color of the... wood on the cross. Well, you tell me! It's got nothing to do with it, has it?
Chuck Palahniuk
-Your heart is my piñata.
-Our Generation has had no Great war, no Great Depression. Our war is spiritual. Our depression is our lives.
-Did perpetual happiness in the Garden of Eden maybe get so boring that eating the apple was justified?
-Game shows are designed to make us feel better about the random, useless facts that are all we have left of our education.
Others
-I am against religion because it teaches us to be satisfied with not understanding the world-Richard Dawkins
-Millions long for immortality who don't know what to do on a rainy afternoon.-Susan Ertz
Idols:
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“I believe that today more than ever a book should be sought after even if it has only one great page in it. We must search for fragments, splinters, toenails, anything that has ore in it, anything that is capable of resuscitating the body and the soul.”
“Nothing Brings People together more, than mutual hatred”
“It'll destroy you if you try to make it mean anything to anyone but yourself.”
"I'm not homophobic. I'm just as interested in your sex life as I'm interested in staring at a bucket of dirt for thirty years. I'm falling asleep already. I bet it makes you mad that you're all the same to me. Straight. Gay. Bi. You'll all the same. Boring. Nineteen piercings in your cock? Like to get tied up and beaten by some woman in black leather? Zzzzzzzzzz."
"If I lose the light of the sun, I will write by candlelight, moonlight, no light. If I lose paper and ink, I will write in blood on forgotten walls. I will write always. I will capture nights all over the world and bring them to you."
“There are so many hammocks to catch you if you fall, so many laws to keep you from experience. All these cities I have been in the last few weeks make me fully understand the cozy, stifling state in which most people pass through life. I don't want to pass through life like a smooth plane ride. All you do is get to breathe and copulate and finally die. I don't want to go with the smooth skin and the calm brow. I hope I end up a blithering idiot cursing the sun - hallucinating, screaming, giving obscene and inane lectures on street corners and public parks. People will walk by and say, "Look at that drooling idiot. What a basket case." I will turn and say to them "It is you who are the basket case. For every moment you hated your job, cursed your wife and sold yourself to a dream that you didn't even conceive. For the times your soul screamed yes and you said no. For all of that. For your self-torture, I see the glowing eyes of the sun! The air talks to me! I am at all times!" And maybe, the passers by will drop a coin into my cup.”
“I don't want to know. I don't need it. I don't want the information that millions of people have. I don't want to be fed these boring facts and figures. Then you'll become one of the masses. I'd rather starve my mind a bit and have to search out nutrition in stranger places.”
“I just want something I can never have.”
“My doctor says, 'You've got one of the hardest ones to treat because it's not bipolar, it's not up and down, you're always just about a quart low in the mood department,”
“I've become impossible, holding on to when everything seemed to matter more.”