I made the call today to find out what the results were for my tests I've been having done. I was hoping for good news and thought that everything was going to be fine, but instead I got the bad news. I was informed that I completely aborted the baby. This is now my 4th miscarriage. Third in a row, had one in December of 2004, one in March of this year and one now. I'm not taking it very well to be totally honest. I don't know how I'm gonna get through this. I just want to curl up and sleep and never wake up. I wanted this baby so bad and to find out that I lost another baby is like losing another piece of me. I feel so empty and feel like I have no answers for anything that's going on with me. I don't understand why this keeps happening.
Anyway, if you have my yahoo feel free to try and reach me on there. If not I'm sure I'll check my fubar from time to time, but I'm not sure I'll feel like talking much for a while. I'm not really up for talking or anything. I am still trying to find out who my friends are around here since I moved back home. It's been tough making new ones since I stay home with the kids all the time and at this point I'm not sure I really care all that much. I just want to be left alone, but I know that's not going to happen cause I'm not allowed to be left alone now. If you have any questions or anything you can leave me a message or try to reach me and I'll try to talk, but no promises. Talk to you all later.
