Today had to be one of the worst days ive had in a long time! i never do one of these blog things! but it was tough! i gave up my company today that hurt i have beed doing it for a little over a year and i had to give it up today! then i got stiffed for dinner was supposed to go to dinner w/ some women from work and relax and here i sit a gain in my Semi all alone. Story of my life! o'well i guess it was just meant to be a bad day today! Also i try to talk to my son never get the chance so that makes me feel like i FAILURE as a dad! i have missed so much of his life doin this job time that i will NEVER get back! time that he will rember and what will he have to say?!?! DADDY WASNT THERE! The only happiness i have in my life is knowing when i get home i have a loving wife waitin for me at the door! that loves me for me! and that is the best feelin EVER! thus why im still here