Well, Im back from having a slight problem...that of which being that I wouldnt stop bleeding from an accident I had. I came back to a rather hateful message on yahoo and all I can say is why the fuck is it always me!?
seriously, you can care for someone, you can devote your life to them, but they be rude enough to do that?
Well im sure in my last blog I mentioned amber and this and that...well said amber left me said hateful message, and thus put me in said mood to rant on about my personality and how her words only make her image degrade more right now.
Well first, I want someone who loves me for ME, not what im supposed to do like work and sleep. Granted yea I do wanna work, but having ADHD is no easy disability and if you cant understand that then fuck off and leave me the beer cause I need no one lookin down at me.
Second, I choose to sit here and play my computer cause if I DID get a job I wouldnt hold it for long considering my ADHD as the big factor, and the lack of things TO work for...I mean sure paying rent is important, and getting food is high priority, but I just dont wanna do that or something cause I drive on if I dont have a relationship, life aint worth shit to put money into.
Third, as ive said, if you cant take who I am then piss off, cause flaming me will only result on you picking on a mentally ill person.
Fourth, Yea im declared mentally ill, from depression, ADHD, suicide attempts, and in some cases anxiety disorder...panic when I feel rushed and make everything priority one when im not.
Im messy, every guy is but im a tad messier but not as messy as danny, I do clean but thats only if im actually feeling motivated, which leans into a relationship, which I have no hopes of ever achieving...
Sure I play video games, lots of people play video games, and guess what? they ACTUALLY have jobs for video game testers! ever thought of that? cause I have and never got a position yet...
I am a gentleman, kind to women and protective over the weak in incapable people, As one of the excerpts of the code of chivilary goes:
"Thou shalt always follow thy noble ambitions over the laws of the land."
Basically that says youll always do what you think is good, no matter what anyone else tells you.
"thou shalt always stride as the champion of the good and nice over the evil and injust"
Im always on the good side no matter what it is.
But quotes aside, yes I follow the code and I would seem to think that chivilary is a long lost code to this generation, which makes me a VERY rare pick.
Now amber, you cant handle me then the next lady in line may try, but I assure you that not ONCE did I ever call off any relationship as well as the 2 we had in the past.
If anyone in corpus christi is interested in me you can simply drop me a shout and I will give you better means of contacting me via yahoo or AIM.
