I swear im getting back where i started.... the shy quiet girl who doesn't talk to anybody. I'm afraid to get close to anyone anymore. im afraid to get attached to someone and get hurt in the end. because it has happened so many times. i know im only 19 and this is just the beginning but. I dunno if i should let my guard down or build a bigger wall.. and hardly trust anyone or be more hesitent to meet people. sometimes i swear i just wanna be in my own lil bubble ... hardly anyone understands me anymore. my friends don't know a whole lot about me. i've got so many secrets im bout bleeding out my ears from it. and People don't understand how sensitive i can be when it comes to my feelings and stuff. i might look tough and all... which i don't think i am.. but other people do. but damn I would call myself a baby sometimes. I still think about my past so much it drives me nuts... i regret so much .. but gesh u can't go back and change it. I worry so much about the future cuz i don't have a clue in the world what to do anymore.Sooo many things have been changing in such a short amount of time. its nuts. and Going through somethings i have never even near experienced before.... some are really scarey. that's why its so hard for me to trust someone anymore. i feel like people just want to run me over. and leave me there for the rats to eat. So yeah USE me , abuse me, Whatever... Apparently People like to...
