1164065's blog: "blahhhh"

Into the valley of the darkness is where my mind shall wander, beneath the rocks of sorrow I shall sit. Take into the counts of life and of hate and wonder how both can be granted into the human soul. Holding forth the knife of reason and wonder and ponder as to what this life has indeed become. Breathing in the soiled air and taking the poison into the depth of my thoughts. Shall I let it take over my body? I ask myself this question most frequently. It is as to my thoughts alone I shall answer it.
It was never to long ago, I tell my self aloud, for it just seems as yesterday. I sat there and let you abuse the only sanity I had in my very mind. I let you into my mind and you forced into my soul. I never did forget the pain that you pushed upon me, yet I wanted to feel the wrath within me let free. Could it been that your evilness was passed into me? Could it be that I was looking into the eyes of the devil himself? I never would know that true answer, but I knew I couldn’t be wrong. Holding on to my tears for years after and yet still wiping them away when I wept.
It was you that committed a murder it was you that took away a life. Maybe not so much a physical life but you took the soul and mind of innocence. I hated you for it and I never understood that a person could do that, so that is when I discovered it was a demon that did that to me. I wanted you to face me but not only you could look into the broken eyes of your own disappointment.
Now this day I ask upon my own soul that I can possibly walk away from this world you have forced me to enter. For what should I have to enter but a world of more pain and misery and now this is what I have found. I too have become over run by the demon that once possessed you. I cant think of another day I have felt anymore pain. Your own world of sickness and sorrow, bullshit and lies, you have brought into my eyes. Now I see all as other eyes wouldn’t, I see the pain that others are forced to endure and it makes me wonder are they as sad as me? Is their soul just as lonely?
Hold onto the day when I awaken into my own world and I see that I have brought fear into your eyes just as you did mine. When your perfect enemy will finally rise and prevent you from forcing more pain onto another soul. I hate the world I see now, it is seen with broken eyes. I listen to sounds with a hazed mind. I touch with tainted senses. I blame you.
So now and then I sit into my own valley and pray to wait for the day I see justice forced upon you. You’re a demon within the body of a man, you are what I discovered as maybe the devil himself. All the hate that was brought into me and others will finally erode after all this time. To see your body being left by your devil soul.
You will never see me cry another tear over you. I will not shed not one more tear upon my cheek, unless of coarse it is that of joy. Not once more will you look into my eyes and see fear of you. Never shall I be afraid of the devil, nor will I ever bring him into me. You may force yourself into my body, soul, and heart, but I will force the guilt into you and make suicide be your faith. For your fate now rests in the hands of justice. Within my mind of pain I found enough sanity to regain and fight off the world through the eyes I see, which you gave, and it shows your final stage. Hold your breathe for because of your sins it may just be your last.