It has been 11 days now since i lost her .. some days are ok and some days are just bad .. at times i lay in bed trying to sleep but then my thoughts begin to wonder and ponder what she is doing .. i expect to hear my phone ring and hear her voice as i have so many times before , never failed i had heard from her at least 4 times a week. now i hear the silence of the night and the day. like Forest Gump would say .. * Life is like a box of chocolates , You never know what Your gonna get * .. this is so true because from one day to the next everything is so different that when you look back there was something and when you blink your eyes , it is gone .. i do not know how long this pain will continue but i will be strong and hold my head up and smile and show a happy look out side .. but deep within my soul i am bleeding and grieving .
Someone told me that to give it a few months and it will be easier , but for some reason i doubt that it will .. You have 1 mother in a lifetime .. and once shes gone there is no other that can take her place. in a way i know how my niece feels about losing her mother , ( my sister ) .. but its not the total same .. i grew up with my mom .. she had to grow up without her.
Maybe one day it will get easier , i do not know . Only God knows that answer , till then i can only take it a day at a time and look within and see how it goes ..
Te Extrano Madre Mia ..
Te Amo .....
