So last night i went to the Sheraton Hotel and met Kristina for the first time in person. I fell in love with her instantly. We were drinking and having fun. And i gave her friends Mary & Colleen advice on how to deal with the men in their lives who were being assholes to them. A little later in the night, i kissed Colleen, Kristina's best friend. Kristina hates me now. And i dont blame her. I do too. I fell in love and ruined it all in the same night. I wanted to show Kristina that i was good enough to have a chance to be her boyfriend. Instead i proved that i am a complete asshole. I dont even know what to do. I cant stop crying. I want to burn. I want to make things better with Kristina. I want to take back the kiss. I cant do any of that. All i can do is be sorry for it and hate myself for it. At least im doing that right.
