so i was at the bar last night just minding my own business, and this lady started talking to me. she was nice, but kind of made me feel like i had to fit into a box because that was her belief. anyway, i was talking to her, and it came out that i don't really have a preference as to guys or girls sexually, because i can talk all i want, i think sex is dirty and i hate the way i feel when it's over. but i have this hypothesis that women are crazy and men are stupid, and that i'd rather deal with crazy than stupid. so she asks if i'm asexual. i don't know. i really don't know anymore. i've identified myself as a lesbian... put myself in a box. but maybe i'm just looking for a person i can connect with on some level i haven't found yet and it doesn't matter what gender they are. i'd like to be able to have an intimate relationship with someone and not feel gross about it. see, i'm aesthetically attracted to people... "oh, he's cute," or, "wow, she's gorgeous." whatever. but not sexually. i don't say things in my head about how much i'd like to "get to know" someone. whatever... anyone have any thoughts?
