so my wednesday back was busy. i was late cuz it was dark and raining when i woke up so i rolled over and went back to sleep even tho the cd i have as my alarm was playing. i had to get caught up in every class (since i missed yesterday) and that was interesting. i also am beginning to HATE the musical cuz we only have blocked 10 scenes (MAYBE) and the show begins in a little over a month. i dont know how we're gonna do it, normally we would've been giving up our weekends already for extra rehersals but so far nothing. i was talkin to the lead actress oday and we both agreed that the crunch this month is gonna SUCK!
so i've been feelin ignored and shit by my friends online cept robert (hannah's ex and my prom date yay!) cuz he goes to college in pennslyvania and we're cool now. but basically i'm gettin sick and tired of being told that someone has a crush on me or loves me and then gettin ignored. that's total bullshit cuz you if DID feel that way, then you wouldnt ignore me. so fuck you. fuck everyone who says they have a crush on me or says "i love you". i HATE being dragged around by my emotions only to collapse into emotional stress or beat myself up cuz you ignore me. it's not fair to me or my emotions. moral of the story is:
IF YOU LOVE ME, FUCKIN SHOW ME!!!
we won a lacrosse game today. i got to see some exxon buddies. robert's gettin me a corsage for prom and we're doing this to get hannah jealous and maybe get back wit him (i hate being in the middle tho...). the song above is my new emo song cuz of the lyrics.
a falling star
least i fall alone.
i cant explain wat you cant explain.
you're finding things that you didnt know
i look at you with such disdain.
