I am starting to not feel happy again. My hands are cold and my body just aches. I've been very quiet to everyone and I just seem to have fallen off the planet to many.
I still have my problems with assuming things and not accepting how anything is. Why do people tell me I'm annoying? I really don't know how or why anyone could... but many do. That's the first moment that I begin assuming everyone is out to get me, or just hate me behind my back.
I'm 21 and I don't drink. That'll always confuse people whenever I mention it.
I want to go to sleep, but I can't. Too cold to want to move, but I have to. I was enjoying my class until I became the forgotten one. I'm not doing well in class, and as always, I'm beginning to once again be seen as that emo kid.
The rules of life are making a barrier. I have to get a job, I have to get my license, and I have to get ready for my next move.
Should I go visit those who would want to meet me?
Should I stay home and hope someone comes to me?
Too many questions, and all I want to do is be happy, but again, what does make me happy always can't be gained. I miss my friends and I miss talking to someone all the time. It looks like no one does care... no one leaves a message, no one bothers to call, and no one really shows a form of life to me.
Maybe I'm just really being emo and I should grow up. Maybe I am still some little boy inside...
