Every now and then we need to stop ourselves from the daily grind to look back at the failures we have made in our lives. When we look back and evaluate what went wrong on our own parts we get to learn from these mistakes, if we look back to find what others did wrong then there is no moving forward from within ourselves. I have made a great deal of mistakes in my life and I have payed the ultimate price. I almost lost my family now a year and a half later I have really gotten to see where I went wrong. I did not balance my life as I should have. Now my 2 son's and myself get to live as a trio with out a mother's love to help guide them and as I would not give up my children for anything, on the flip side I would do anything to give them a mother that would love and help guide them in their lives, for now we will go on and continue forward until we can find some one worthy of this great pleasure.