been feeling like shit today and yesterday. i hate the fact thati have to snoop to find things. i hate how the person i can trust the most can still stab me in the back and not expect me to find out. i hate how i can run off someone who's been there for 3 years and stood with me thru thick and thin (the backstabber and the one who stood with me arent the same people). i hate my life, i hate not being able to eat without wanting to gag, i hate not being able to pay attention in class no matter how hard i try...i hate questioning and second-guessing everything that's said to me. i hate wanting romance and only gettin used. i hate feeling like i'm pushing myself on someone. i hate feeling like the loner. i hate being the fool, i hate this pain, i hate crying late at night. i hate being me...
i hate being bitter and being this way...
