Snuggles01's blog: "Another Day!"

I have come up with some songs that fit the way I am feeling right now. All are on my playlist. Broken -- Seether, Cold -- Crossfade, and So Far Away -- Crossfade. The emptiness has yet to take over but its heading that way. My birthday is getting closer and its kind of depressing. I have no one to spend my birthday with, no one to celebrate with. Depression is a shitty reality that must be faced. Your horoscope - Today, July 8, 2007 Boy, your life seems seriously out of balance, doesn't it Joni. Today provides an opportunity to rethink what is truly important to you. It is likely that the cause of all this stress can be eliminated when viewed through a different lens. Your Lovescope - Today, July 8, 2007 Today's celestial energy encourages you to put your worries behind you and to get out and socialize with others. You have a lot to gain, and even though it may not lead to a wonderful romance, you will find that you get to meet a certain person who could become a very good friend. It is possible that things could progress from here, but this is an excellent start.

Im back from my holiday! It was fabulous! I got to watch the rockies beat the mets! The fire works after the game were awesome. Then I came home to an empty house wich is kinda boring and very lonely. I miss having my friends around. Im thinking I might go out tonight and see if I can make some new friends or meet a nice guy. We will see if it works. Anyways just wanted to let everyone know im back from my holiday and to wish everyone a Happy Independence Day!!!!!!!

Maybe if I was thinner you would have wanted me. Maybe if I was prettier you would have dated me. Maybe if I looked like a celebrity you would have liked me. Maybe if I changed who I was I'd be your girl. But you should have liked me the way I am. I'm never gonna be a size ZERO and I'm fine with that. I'm never gonna be as pretty as the other girls and I don't care. I'm never gonna be the good enough for you. I'm just me. A girl whose not perfect and whose never gonna be. I'm just me. And that's all I can be. Either you accept me the way I am Or your not worth my time by Xkelsiex

Wanting someone to love me needing a friend But there's no one out there or at least no one for me What's wrong with me? What don't they see? It's too hard to believe I almost can't even breathe Give me answers Stop asking questions Put a fence around me A-thousand imperfect reflections Forgive me god for anything I did But don't let me live my life like this I'm falling to my knees and i'll continue to bleed Unless someone can please love me. by Marilyn marti

Want the world to know, Scream it out loud No longer fight against it Be myself and show them, That I to need love Need to be loved Hugged, just need some one to care A reason to live for? A reason to stand up in the morning Get outta bed and make myself pretty Someone who still know?s I?m there? But I know I can?t My body and soul wants to But my mind keeps fighting against it Want the fighting to stop? I just need someone who understands me Who will love me for who I am Admires me for the things I do Just loves me because it?s me? by DiDi

Broken hearted sorrow dance Ignoring lovers mating trance Soul remembers her love declined Depths of sadness consume thy mind Distant thunder creates tainted tears Rainbows fade throughout the years Romantic memories are simply unkind Depths of sadness consume thy mind Hopeful tomorrows cause me to hide Loving emotion tossed aside Ghostly visions are left behind Depths of sadness consume thy mind Joyful lovers seduce these eyes Roses are beautiful, yet they die Lost and alone, feeling confined Depths of sadness consume thy mind by Andrea Sunny

Am I such an unlikeable person that a guy has to be drunk to like me and want to spend time with me? I don't think I am such a bad person. Like everyone else I have my bad days.

Since I work to much I have decided to take a 5 day weekend. Maybe this will improve my mood some. Never know maybe I will do something fun and exciting. I am taking a trip to see a ball game don't know how exciting that will be but hey won't know till I go. The fact of the matter is I just want to get away for a few days. Maybe with this nice break I can think about all the shit going on im my life. Well thats all the news I have for now. Oh yeah incase im not on again before the 4th. Happy Independence Day!!!!!!

Another day full of stuff on my mind. I applied for another job which I hope I get. The only bad thing is the job will move me farther away from my family and friends. I am pretty sure the job is worth it though. The good thing is it is a permenant position so I might be able to get a pet, which would be really nice. The other bad thing is moving again all by myself. My birthday is in exactly 32 days which is making me feel kind of old. Unlike my sisters I don't have kids or a man to lean on. On the other hand I have decided I work to damn much. Speaking of work time to go back, so I guess thats enough shit for today.

Just some shit going on that I thought I would write about. Vegas was awsome! Wish I was still there. Im job hunting which really sucks. Still stuck somewhere inbetween in the relationship world. Which really sucks. The lack of love and emotional support is really depressing me. Why is it guys feel the need to with hold such valuable things? Isn't there a guy out there with a sense of humor and good heart? Very questioning puzzle. Well thats enough for one day. Catch you again on the next go around.