Sweet Southern Masochist's blog: "Poetry by Muah"

I'm about to pour my heart out to you....

Inspire me. Give me reason to live.
(I haven't a sense of direction)
Merely a ghost in the twilight
Lonliness to be my reflection
I have tired of this empty routine
(Too similar to stand for contrast)
Make amends with lost love
Priorities first to become the last
My mind is like a leafless tree
(Swaying in the summer wind)
So beautiful yet so incomplete
Feelings held out on every limb
--(This is my retreat)--

I'll sleep on this solemn cloud
(For hours, days, months....)
Tiring of repetitive gloom
Wishing to breathe, just once
When my hair falls upon my face
(And my eyes grace the pages)
My stare eventually meets yours
Yearning for translation of our stages
Dreaming in distant realms
Conciousness so far away
I stare into the bleak distance
Love never to hold Her stray
--(There has to be more than this)--

Maybe you need to lose your mind
(So you can join me in this form)
Completely void of sane emotion
Lost in the flow of the storm
I have changed so much
(I doubt you would recognize)
Or see through the indecision
Regret? I was so caught up in lies
I love you with all that I don't have
(You created so many scars)
Tore open too many wounds
I thought I finally got to the stars
--(The only faith lies in the Moon)--

I'm pathetic. This shouldn't hurt.
(Remember, I have no feeling)
And you made me cry.... yet again
All this strength you are stealing
I fear I can't promise I'll ever heal
(Or that I'll be strong enough for you)
Because I've broken down once more
The bruises turned from black to blue
Followed by the constant reminder
(Of the hits I take to save a name)
I can't deal with the reputation
Of being nothing but just the same
--(I'm not sure if this is my imagination)--

....Are you listening?

I
Didn't
Think
So.