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What are you waiting for?
Really. Now.
What do you think you're doing?
scribbling Notes in a brokendown book
Volumes left in the dark, musty and full of mould
tell the Secrets of the midnight hour
Twitching and witching out
Holes exposed pipes bleed rust
Lost in the nightmare of razorbladesandcandy
sometimes i Wonder what we're really doing here
In this lost cataclysmic maelstrom of iniquity
Of absurdity
Where did you come from? What dream do you live from?
Leeching energy off those who'll allow
i know your fais it's a memory i may neverforgetlostinthedreamsofforever
Why? whynot? Flailing about, flout out the truth
and hide it like it's a lie...
Hm... What do say? who knows. I don't at the moment. I'm in an odd sort of mood. Solid... Clear? Concise? Maybe something else that begins with a C. Maybe ...cement. or concrete. or cumbubblemotherfucker. But god damn, I feel rather good. unafraid. Confident.
Just sitting here, and thinking. Y'know, like I do. And, I've come to the conclusion that I do over think everything. Which is an interesting thing, because it's true. I spend more time plotting and planning and worrying and wondering about the back end, that I don't just get up and do it. But that's neither here nor there, or is it everything? theories. It's just fascinating.
There are many things that are true, but most things aren't. It's all about perspective. But ones perspective is an important thing, it's what we hold onto, what we base our lives around. How we perceive the world we're in. Example : We perceive the grass is green, but let's just say - our perception is wrong. What would the repercussions be? Would it unravel all existence? In theory, it's quite possible. If that basis is true, that grass is not green, then it might unmake everything, at least in our heads. Something so trivial as colour. Could unmake the world. It's just a theory, but nonetheless, think on it. We inherently believe most of what we're told, even if we buck it, fight against it, on a base level we still believe it. It's just interesting to think about, if the grass isn't green, then is everything else we've based our lives on false? And yes, these are the thoughts that kept me out of the good schools.
I questioned too much and accepted most teachers are full of shit. Scared children who could never leave school. Most of them. There are exceptions to every rule, but I work in generals, because it's easier than pulling actual numbers out of my ass. It's laziness, I know, but that's not the point is. The point is, there are generals. It is a general statement that most of the people in this country are full-blown morons, and if breathing weren't automatic, they'd be fucking dead. But there are exceptions. There's an exception to everything, not because everyone is special, or anyone is special, but because there is nothing set in stone, concrete and 100%. To think anything is such is idiocy beyond the capacity of rational thought, and luckily, I don't think there is anyone who believes anything 100%. Not even Xians. They all have their crisis of faith.It's the way the human mind is wired.
People are actually much smarter than they allow themselves to be. They have the capacity for more intelligence than they allow. Maybe that's just the romantic idealist in me. No one is inherently stupid. I hope. Most, I feel, actually strive for it. Maybe. Maybe, because anything is possible. Even, in theory, there could be a god. There's no science or math or anything reputable behind it, but that's my thought on the subject.
Okay, the math is in favour of extra-terrestrials. Why? Because there are countless stars. To think that we are the sole planet with sentient life is full on idiocy. Do I think they've visited earth and penetrated our back doors? Not necessarily, but it is more likely than an intangible father-figure creating us out of his ass. Yes, I just compared the human species to feces. And yes, it's fitting.
Hell, I'd be more apt to believe an alien species planting us here for entertainment or an experiment. Been throwing that one around for... Well, since Freshman year... so... fuck... 13 years? Give or take. Something like that. But yeah, it's just interesting to think about the possibilities. Which is silly, because it's not here and now, it's not tangible, but it is a source of hope, and hope is all I have to keep me moving, dig?
Not a pessimist, I'm just a cynical bastard.
I have hope, and I think it's possible that we will actually evolve. Maybe not in our lifetime. Maybe not before Gaia shrugs us off like the parasites we are, but it could be in our future. We have the potential, if we aren't exterminated before we realise it.
Anything is possible, my friends. Anything at all.
