ya know, it's strange... i have learned to realize... apparently, i'm a bitch *lol* it's weird how some people have no issues dealing w/ me... they learn to not say some stupid shit to me... while others never learn it...
but i have learned one thing... i don't care who it is... i can piss anyone off... i mean, i bitched about the checking in thing... and got told basically my "m.o." was to be a bitch to people... and naturally, i get defensive and pissed... aannnddd i get told i'm crazy, and to seek help... *lol* like i don't ALREADY see a psychiatrist?!?!?! like i'm not medicated enough... when i get annoyed or pissed, i try to leave, as i know i say stupid things... yet men wont just leave... wont leave me alone.... and then it's my fault when i become super bitch.... i think this is why i don't date... i know how it always ends... plus i hold grudges really bad... and as much SHIT as i have going on in my life, and as upset as i am right now... i can't deal w/ people bitching about stupid shit, like "being annoyed cuz i didn't say where i was going or check in" or whatever... but... whatever works...
i guess i just don't understand other people. I mean, i don't like dealing w/ people. I don't like being told i fuck up (i usually KNOW, so i don't like being told) i don't like being tracked, stalked, bossed around... whatever (spanning a few boyfriends there) i don't like being told what to do... i'm not always considerate of other people's feelings... usually, it's unintentional... i don't adjust to stress easy... when i am upset about shit, and people bitch about stupid little shit, it always winds up setting me off... some of you, who are really really close to me, know what is going on in my life, and WHY i am so stressed out... an accumulation of everything, and to add in petty bullshit,i get mean, i get hateful, and i get cruel... thats my "excuse"... scott pointed that out SOOOOO well... i have sooo many excuses.... well, i see them as reasons... but fine, i am a psychotic bitch... thank god i know that already, or i would be pretty shocked...
whats funny, there are some people i have never really fought w/... tiffany, because she understands me, daniel, cuz well, he doesn't feel the dire need to point out my faults... i only fought w/ krystal once, but we're both stubborn so it was a BIG fight... strange huh? i am sure there are others... but those are the major ones... who are always involved in my life... oh jill, haven't fought w/ her...
i dunno~ just some people have a way of saying things that just piss me off... i get so sick of being told i'm wrong, and i fuck up... every single fucking day... i get so sick of being reminded so often what i do wrong... i don't get why people make big deal out of shit.... well, i know i bitch hard core when people tell me i do shit wrong... not as much as i used to... if it's something obvious i usually dont... but if it's something i don't think needed pointing out, i get HOSTILE....
whatever, i guess i'm stupid for even bitching about it... another chapter of robin's life, closed... onto tomorrow, thursday :) dance class... for tash.... algebra, computer concepts, and work!!! YAY!!!!
