Wanting Back My Sanity!!
Feeling the urge to just say the hell with it all, I think as well, of those I would leave behind. Wondering if they would be able to cope with the decision I am looking at. Wanting this pain to go away, but not wanting to cause others any as well. Wishing some how I knew what to do.
Asking myself as I hold the cold steel barrel next to my temple, if this is actually the best thing for everyone. Knowing that once I make that choice, there is no going back to the way things used to be, in this mixed up and twisted life that I am living in as of right now. Oh what shall I do??
Having a feeling of loneliness and being lost constantly, I feel like all I am to every one is both a burden and troublesome bother. Some times it is as if I am the only person upon this diabolical planet, searching for an answer I know that I shall never find or even come close to locating.
Things from days of old, swirling through my mind, making me wonder why we did the things we did way back when. Knowing that long ago, I should have already of left this existence. Maybe one day when things are clearer in my mind, I will know what it's like to have my sanity back again.
P . J . Page 12/7/2011 7:52pm
