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An Awakening

An Awakening -

When in the midst of all your fears and insanity you stop dead in your tracks and somewhere the voice inside your head cried out- ENOUGH! Enough of the fighting and crying or struggling to hold on, and like a child quieting down after a blind tantrum, your sobs begin to subside, you shudder once or twice, you blink back your tears and through a mantle of wet lashes you begin to look at the world through new eyes.

This is your awakening. You realize that its time to stop hoping and waiting for something to change or for happiness, safety and security to come galloping over the next horizon. You come to terms with the fact that he is not Prince Charming and you are not Cinderella and that in the real world there aren’t always fairy tale endings (or beginnings for that matter) and the guarantee of “happily ever after” must begin with you and in the process of a sense of serenity is born acceptance.

You awaken to the fact that you are not perfect and that not everyone will always love, appreciate or approve of who or what you are…and that’s OK. (They are entitled to their own views and opinions) And you learn the importance of loving and championing yourself and in the process, a sense of newfound confidence is born of self-approval.

You stop complaining and blaming other people for the things they did to you (or didn’t do for you) and you learn that the only thing you can really count on is the unexpected. You learn that people don’t always say what they mean or mean what they say and that not everyone will always be there for you and that it’s not always about you. So, you learn to stand on your own to take care of yourself and in the process of a sense of safety a security is born self reliance.

You stop judging and pointing fingers and you begin to accept people as they are and to overlook their shortcomings and human frailties and in the process a sense of peace and contentment are born of forgiveness. You realize that much of the way you view yourself, and the world around you, is a result of all the messages and opinions that have been integrated into your psyche.

And you begin to sift through all the crap you’ve been fed about how you should behave. How you should look and how much you should weigh. What you should wear and where you should shop. What you should drive, how and where you should live and what you should expect of a marriage, the importance of having and raising children or what you owe your parents.

You learn to open up to new worlds and different points of view. And you being reassessing and redefining who you are and what you are what you really stand for.

You learn the difference between wanting and needing and you being to discard the doctrines and values you’ve outgrown, or should never have bought into to begin with and in the process you learn to go with your own instincts.

You learn and understand that it is truly in giving that we receive. And that there is power and glory in creating and contributing and you stop maneuvering through life merely as a “consumer” looking for your next fix. You learn the principles such as honesty and integrity are not outdated ideals of a bygone era but the mortar that holds together the foundation upon which you must build a life.

Then you learn about love; romantic, familial, and agape love or how to love, how much to give in love, when to stop giving and when to walk away. You learn not to project your needs or your feelings onto a relationship. You learnt that you will not be more beautiful, more intelligent, more lovable or important because of the man/woman on your arm or the child that bears your name.

You learn to look at relationships as they really are and not as you would have them to be. You stop trying to control people, situations and outcomes. You learnt that just as people grow and change so it is with love….and you learn you don’t have the right to demand love on your terms….just to make you happy.

And you learnt that alone does not mean lonely. … And you look in the mirror and come to terms with the fact that you will never be a size 5 or a perfect 10 and you stop trying to compete with the image inside your head and agonizing over how you “stack up”.

You also stop working so hard at putting your feelings aside, smoothing things over and ignoring your needs. You learn that feelings of entitlement are perfectly OK….and that is your right to want things and to ask for things that you want…and that sometimes it is necessary to make demands.

You come to the realization that you deserve to be treated with love, kindness, sensitivity and respect and you won’t settle for less. And, you allow only the hands of a lover who cherishes you to glorify you with his touch…and in the process you internalize the meaning of self-respect.

And you learn that your body really is your temple. And you begin to care for it and treat it with respect. You begin eating a balanced diet, drinking more water and taking more time to exercise. You learn that fatigue diminishes the spirit and can create doubt and fear. So you take more time to rest. And just as food fuels the body, laughter fuels the soul. So you take more time to laugh and play.

You learn that anything worth achieving is worth working for and that wishing for something to happen is entirely different from working towards making it happen. More importantly, you learn that in order to achieve success you need direction, discipline, and perseverance. You also learn that no one can do it all alone and that it is OK to ask for help.

You learn that the only things you must truly fear is the great robber baron fear it in it’s self.

You learn to step right into and through your fears because you know that whatever may happen to you, you can handle it and to give into fear is to give away the right to live life on your own terms. And you learn to fight for your life and not to squander it living under a cloud of doom. You learn that life isn’t always fair, you don’t always get what you think you deserve and that sometimes bad things happen to unsuspecting good people. On these occasions you learn not to personalize things. You learn that God isn’t punishing you or failing to answer your prayers. Its just life happening.

And you learn to deal with evil in its most primal state-the ego. You learn that negative feelings such as anger, envy and resentment must be understood and redirected or they will suffocate the life out of you and poison the universe that surrounds you. You learn to admit when you are wrong and to go build bridges instead of walls. You learn to be thankful and to take comfort in many of the simple things we take for granted, things that millions of people upon this earth can only dream about; a full refrigerator, clean running water, a soft warm bed and a long hot shower.

Slowly, you begin to take responsibility for yourself by yourself and you make sure a promise to never betray yourself and to never ever settle for less than your hearts desire. And you hang up a wind chime outside your window so you can listen to the wind. And you make it a point to keep smiling, to keep trusting, and to stay open to every wonderful God given possibility.

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