Am I Dead??
The blade is sharp, And ready for the kill.
I hold it firm in my hand, I feel like I've been put under a spell.
The tears stream down my face, They're just an annoyance washing away this empty hollow space.
I can not think, my mind is in a whirl, Then I remember it was God who put me on this world.
So he is to blame for all the pain there is to show, He is to blame for this hell that I know.
No it's not he who chose my path, The only one to blame is me.
That's why it comes down to this, As I think of all the friends I'm going to miss.
Then a thought strikes though my head, Why do I think I must be dead?
As I sit here and ponder this question I've found, With the knife in my hand my head starts to pound.
The world starts spinning then starts to goblack, Am I lost, am I dead, is there any way to go back?
I wake up the next day, A hospital bed is where I lay.
My arms and legs are strapped down, For some reason my head still pounds.
I try to get up to see what happened to me, But my wrists hurt and I can't seem to get free.
My eyes feel heavy and start to close, Maybe I'll just let myself doze.
The world goes black, This time I know I'm not going back.
My mom will cry but try to be brave, Put Mommy's Little Angel on my grave.
I love you mom and I hope you know, That even though I had to go.
You were on my mind until the end, Say goodbye for me to all my friends.
Tell them that I tried to stay, And I'll see them when they come my way.
One more thing before I say goodbye, I know I can't say this before I start to cry.
Tell my boyfriend I love him, And I hated to leave him.
Tell him I'll love him until the last dawn, And I still love him even though I am gone.
My time is through, So it's time to say goodbye to all of you.
