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Am I crazy?

So I was having a conversation with my friend's wife who is a psychology major. She said that I may be bipolar. Now at first I was like hmm... na, I don't feel crazy. Then when I read up on it a little more I began to consider it as a real possibility, though not as advanced as the word could get. See, I have always had a form of split personality. One that was usually present in my every day situations and one that would arise in extraordinary situations. Its not really a split just different sets of values, possiblities and priorities. For a little background information of my life. I was born in Mountain Home, Idaho. Was adopted the day after I was born, taken to Anaheim, CA and due to some unfortunate but avoidable situations of my life, still live there. My adoptive parents are one hell of a couple... both are alcoholics, my mom suffers from depression as well as some other forms of psychological problems, and my dad is a workaholic diabetic who doesn't really care bout much. Despite their faults I still love them, they gave me a second chance at going back to shcool and trying to make something of myself. As far as my biological parents go I have no real connections to them. When I was 7 or 8 years old I developed a fascination with ciggarettes. Don't ask me why I have no idea... might of been genetic who knows. But at that young age I started going around on my skates finding half smoked butts and smokin em. Very unusual and extremely sad cause now I am 21 and still an active smoker. I am a huge bud smoker, I feel it helps balance me out and keep me going. I don't feel like it has any sort of drastic effect on my mind other then a release of stress. Why its not legal here in the states is beyond me. Ain't no bud heads running cars into pedestrians at 75 mph, or going home and beating their wives cause they are high. It makes no sense to me but I am supposed to accept it as a "wrong" thing to do cause our government says so. I grew up in a pretty tough area. Southern California is probably one of the most mixed and diverse areas for all differen't races. Alot of gang activity, tagging and hard drugs around. I had my days of it, banged with NTC did dirt all that... youngins are so easily influenced and so was I. So as most kids in this area who tread that path, I ended up in jail, with 3 years of probation hooked up to it. Done with that part of my life these days but still have a good amount of friends from those times. Wouldn't trade them for anyone in the world either. So thats a lil history on yours truely. I don't find myself having full on conversations with myself on the side of the street. Nor have I ever felt the need to "off" myself or to cause self inflicted pain by cutting or beating myself up. So am I crazy cause I may be bipolar? If a different personality takes over in times that requires a more direct non bullshit taking approach is that a bad thing? I don't know. Now obviously if that personality was taking over in a situation that did not need it, such as going out on a date that would be a huge problem. But I have never experienced that. What I honestly think is that everyone in some way is bipolar. A soldier who kills someone cannot afford to let that effect the part of his mind that he uses when he spends time with his wife. I most likely developed this side of my personality when I was out on the streets with homies. Did things and seen things that one couldn't let effect their personal side without warping and twisting their mind until they are "clinicly crazy" or whatever the proper term for it is. Either way thats a little insite to my mind. This is my first blog so I thought I would try it out and see what happens.
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